Damn.. I woke up today, a happier, bigger and better man... I give glory to God for sparing my life till this day and making this morning as blessed as it was...
I'm still remembering/missing someone special to me... and i've been asking myself so many questions...
Questions like...
Why did you do this to me?
Why did u agree date me in d first place?
Why date me for so long a period?
Why did you make me fall in love with you?
Why did you allow things go so deep?
Why did u tell me u were always gonna be there?
Why did you tell me you loved me?
WHY WHY WHY???
Well, I might not have d answers to these questions but I know dat...
I still feel your presence aroung me...I still hear your voice...
I STILL LOVE YOU...
I've had a great day, hope you've had one too???
Monday, July 23, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
today.... i can't tell wots wrong
It's today, a "Saturday", a day that I didn't wake up on a happy note... A lot of things driving me krazie, too many things I which I cud change or sumtin... Damn... dis is really krazie... I tot my mood was going to get better as d day went bye but it hasn't until now 2:27PM....
Thinkin about home, when I say home, I mean 9ja... when I say 9ja, u knw where dat @, in West Africa... Thinkin about wot things are like back home, what's happenin and why I'm so far away from home.... I miss my dearest mum... miss dad too, miss my younger ones so much...
Today has been a day I've tot about a lot of personal things, most of which I cannot divulge here.. Today I miss my ex d most in a very long while... I dnt knw why it's like this today... Today am so furious inside cos a lot of things are gradually going wrong and I feel like am not able to help it... There's presently no fun in me... Just anger and shit like dat.. I wish I cud control this situation right now, somehow, am not able to...
I want to do a lot of things, and things that are not supposed to hold me back are holding me back... I love my ex so much and I dnt knw why things shud go d way it's gone with us right now... Really tot there was a forever somewhere for her... I miss her and I miss everything we did together... I miss the kind of inspiration she gives me... I miss her presence, I miss her care and I miss her love.... She was my best friend, was my everything... Maybe today I want to give up and maybe I jst want to let things fly the way it's gone... Well, I met some chic, somewhere, after a few krazie months, but as usuall, there'd somehow be a complication somewhere, sumtin to make things impossible.. Although my only friend here in SA usually tells me that "the only thing impossible, is that which is not imaginable by you".... But I still think that there are some things that u can imagine that happen to be impossible... That's all about that... I just want to know the exact reason why am so sad and angry inside... Tot I was going to find the answer here, but I haven't... So I've gotta bounce now... Do u know why am in dis state???
Thinkin about home, when I say home, I mean 9ja... when I say 9ja, u knw where dat @, in West Africa... Thinkin about wot things are like back home, what's happenin and why I'm so far away from home.... I miss my dearest mum... miss dad too, miss my younger ones so much...
Today has been a day I've tot about a lot of personal things, most of which I cannot divulge here.. Today I miss my ex d most in a very long while... I dnt knw why it's like this today... Today am so furious inside cos a lot of things are gradually going wrong and I feel like am not able to help it... There's presently no fun in me... Just anger and shit like dat.. I wish I cud control this situation right now, somehow, am not able to...
I want to do a lot of things, and things that are not supposed to hold me back are holding me back... I love my ex so much and I dnt knw why things shud go d way it's gone with us right now... Really tot there was a forever somewhere for her... I miss her and I miss everything we did together... I miss the kind of inspiration she gives me... I miss her presence, I miss her care and I miss her love.... She was my best friend, was my everything... Maybe today I want to give up and maybe I jst want to let things fly the way it's gone... Well, I met some chic, somewhere, after a few krazie months, but as usuall, there'd somehow be a complication somewhere, sumtin to make things impossible.. Although my only friend here in SA usually tells me that "the only thing impossible, is that which is not imaginable by you".... But I still think that there are some things that u can imagine that happen to be impossible... That's all about that... I just want to know the exact reason why am so sad and angry inside... Tot I was going to find the answer here, but I haven't... So I've gotta bounce now... Do u know why am in dis state???
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