It's today, a "Saturday", a day that I didn't wake up on a happy note... A lot of things driving me krazie, too many things I which I cud change or sumtin... Damn... dis is really krazie... I tot my mood was going to get better as d day went bye but it hasn't until now 2:27PM....
Thinkin about home, when I say home, I mean 9ja... when I say 9ja, u knw where dat @, in West Africa... Thinkin about wot things are like back home, what's happenin and why I'm so far away from home.... I miss my dearest mum... miss dad too, miss my younger ones so much...
Today has been a day I've tot about a lot of personal things, most of which I cannot divulge here.. Today I miss my ex d most in a very long while... I dnt knw why it's like this today... Today am so furious inside cos a lot of things are gradually going wrong and I feel like am not able to help it... There's presently no fun in me... Just anger and shit like dat.. I wish I cud control this situation right now, somehow, am not able to...
I want to do a lot of things, and things that are not supposed to hold me back are holding me back... I love my ex so much and I dnt knw why things shud go d way it's gone with us right now... Really tot there was a forever somewhere for her... I miss her and I miss everything we did together... I miss the kind of inspiration she gives me... I miss her presence, I miss her care and I miss her love.... She was my best friend, was my everything... Maybe today I want to give up and maybe I jst want to let things fly the way it's gone... Well, I met some chic, somewhere, after a few krazie months, but as usuall, there'd somehow be a complication somewhere, sumtin to make things impossible.. Although my only friend here in SA usually tells me that "the only thing impossible, is that which is not imaginable by you".... But I still think that there are some things that u can imagine that happen to be impossible... That's all about that... I just want to know the exact reason why am so sad and angry inside... Tot I was going to find the answer here, but I haven't... So I've gotta bounce now... Do u know why am in dis state???
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Life can nvr be that easy... sometimes you have to be far from your loved ones, but in a lil while you'll see them again...
Well, I don't know what got you all worked up 4m inside because there was no hint. All I can say is that, you need $$$ to take some of your worries away, then pray and work towards your goals and believe and I know everything would turn out fine.
it dint at all seem like u all that sad...coz man...u can sing!!!but maybe u just like me,nd mask ur troubles with a smile...well just keep smiln bro...
lovn ur blog...pic *giggling
xoxo
@ fatima: u dnt knw wots killin moi inside.. bout d singin thing, tanx 4 d compliment bt dnt think i'm dat gud bt i luv to try.. nd if wot u say is true, den am lyke u, maskin my troubles wit a smile.. tanx 4 leavin a comment..
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